I feel like I'm exhausted and my heart is gasping for a relief. Tired from jumping from one relationship to another relationship coming out of each weaker and tired. Maybe sometimes I get out a little bit smarter and have learned something but generally tired.
I have been in all sort of relationships, but had minimal if no physical contact. I don't believe sex is a very importing component of a relationship. But still it's necessary for the relationship to evolve from childhood to adulthood. Our society is frustrated sexually and anyone who contradict that is blind and I was one of those people. 25 year old and never been kissed, what have I gained from that ?! Nothing !
It's true that I have my own personal drama which might have played a role in this frustration but I'm not willing to share it here, at lest not in this post.
Anyways, I have met the cutest guy who makes me laugh so hard I get an asthma attack. He's kind and compassionate and I like that he is opinionated in a very logical way. The fact that he believes in nothing makes him even more attractive to me :P. So, I wanted to get out of my comfort zone, do something I have never did before and I kissed him. It was weird I expected he's lips to smell like cigarets, since he;s a smoker, but no it was sweet and soft. I wished it would last forever and though I know most defiantly it won't but I just hope even if we part our own ways we get back together some day.
