The Grand Illusion

Can you pick up the odd in this picture?!

You can deny being fooled once or twice but you can't deny being blinded by the obvious. You can't deny the fact that we lose the bigger picture, the higher meaning, and the reason behind this whole life.

You lose yourself in the peruse of money, fame and happiness. You lose your health for the sake of that big promotion. You lose precious time with your family to work double shit for the sake of more money. You lose yourself for the sake of someone else. In the end, we all forgot the bigger picture.

You wanted fame to make your family happy! But now everyone think you are a self absorbed and self centered asshole. You wanted that big promotion, and work that double shift to get the money for whom ?! For your family?! The one that does not get to see you ?! They don't want the bigger house, the fancy car, the trip to France without you! You forget who you are and became the person you thought he/she wants, then what ?! You he/she is happy ?! How come when the person he/she loves is no longer there . Then you wonder why he/she left me?!

Isn't it obvious ?! It's because you lost the reason behind all this !

Now, You will sit in the dark corner of your room and think, how did I get here ?! have I done everything right ?! Why am I still unhappy...

Milo

Kinematics was my habit. So, I have always chosen the last chair in the class. Sitting in back watching how people interact. The 1st day people meet pretty much decide how their relation go,or wither they will be friends or not. I tend to give nicknames to the people I'm watch, sometimes it's nice, but most of the time it's mean ones. There was Mr.Hairy Face, Mr.Traditional, Mr.KnowItAll, Mr.LookAtMeI'mHot, and Mr. BabyFace.

Arctophilic I am, so Mr.BabyFace caught my eye. He was one of those smart, nice and act too polite for my taste guy :P. That summer course ended, with it most of the friendships I made. Then, my facebook showed a friendship request :O and it was Mr.BabyFace. Honestly, I thought he is mistaking me for someone else ! As the conversation between us progressed, I learned he added everyone from that course we took. We kept in touch for a while...

Pantosophic he was, amazed his knowledge I became. He was a philosopher, completely different for anything and anyone I know. His words can left your spirit up even if you were in the deepest whole. Painfully positive and has just the right amount of honesty. Dreamy on a solid ground reasonability. Every conversation with him is a journey to the unknown.

Lapideous my heart became, but he soften it. Gave me hope and sweet dreams. Dear friend in a very short time. Made me regret not knowing him up close. If time will take me back I would do things differently.

Adventure his mind, hidden behind the sharp looks and deviant smile. Hidden messages every where and I'm loving it . Lots I don't know about him but I know it's going to be a memorable journey.

Now, I'm done played the game and left it for you to figure it out Milo R.

Getting Over the Soulmate

I told you I love you once, twice, and many times after but did I tell I hate?! Did I tell you the sight of you nauseate me ?! Did I tell you the smell of you irritates me ?! Did I tell you, I hate your voice and I hate my name when you call for me?! Did I you, loving you was a mistake, I'll pay it's price for the rest of my life?!

I hate you as much as I loved you. I hate you as much as the tears I shed for you and myself. I hate you from the beginning till the end. I hate all my memories of you. I hate the ground you walk on. I hate the air you breath. I hate everything I loved about you.

Did I tell you how much I hate you ?!

I want to peel my skin off, because I can still feel your touch. I want to shave my head, because I can still feel your fingers in between my hair. I want to burn my lips until nothing left, because I can still feel your kiss. If I can take my heart out too, I would, because you touched it like no one before you ever did.

I went back to read every word I wrote about you, and I wish I could take it all back. Take away the good and the bad, I need nothing of those memories.

I started to pretend, I'm over you. Fooled everyone around me but not as much as I fooled myself. Up until I saw you walking down the hallway, then my heart started to race. With each step you toke toward me, I could feel my heart beat harder and harder. Then you pass by me as if I was a stranger. Now, I start to forget the good part of you. My heart beats start to slow, until I feel it turn to stone. All the good things we shared wasn't worth fighting for, at lest not to you. As you walk away with each step you take, I can feel the love for you fades away. I can feel my heart die again...

I refuse to shed a tear for you. I refuse to shed a tear for me, for I'm too strong, and too brave to be broken by you. I'm worth the smile and you are definitely, not worth the pain.

Now, I'm free, no hatred left for me to feel. No pain and no sorrow left, only the memories and some lessons for the future...