So I couldn't fulfill the every day challenge, apparently it require more than effort and commitment. Why ? Because,
1. Because there is weeks when you are an intern, you bearly have time to wake up, go to the hospital, come back home late, and die just to be revived next day half dead and go to work again.
2. -__-" there is a lot of things that happens everyday which I can't say to the public.
3. :P some legal matters involved.
Instead I'm going to tell you a little bit story was told to me by a doctor about a little girl and women she mat one late night. Here's the story,,,
1. Because there is weeks when you are an intern, you bearly have time to wake up, go to the hospital, come back home late, and die just to be revived next day half dead and go to work again.
2. -__-" there is a lot of things that happens everyday which I can't say to the public.
3. :P some legal matters involved.
Instead I'm going to tell you a little bit story was told to me by a doctor about a little girl and women she mat one late night. Here's the story,,,
I realized that I over
work myself with stupid travail problems. I was walking in the hallway
crying silently as if I was carrying the world on my shoulder, all
because my boyfriend and I broke up !
As
I'm walking and drying off my tears a woman approached me, she asked me
where do they usually do the liver biopsy and that she has an
appointment but she is lost in this big hospital. So, I gave her the
directions, she thanked and started crying. She told me that they are
suspecting metastasis because 3 years ago she had Brest cancer. I, being
a social awkward, just told her god help you and sent her off crying on
her way. I toke a few steps and then something clicked, I'm gonna go
cry about my silly problem and just left a woman who needed a friend go
alone. So, I turned back and followed her, I held her hand and told her
will find the admission office together.
On
our way to the admission office she told me her story. She told that
she was diagnosed in 2009 and under went Brest removal. Ever since the
surgery her husband abandoned her and the kids. She told me he didn't
accept a woman with one Brest. He left her will she was still doing her
chemotherapy. I looked at myself while listening to her story and felt
so little. She told me they did CT before for her and showed 2 small
masses on her liver back in 2009 and the biopsy was negative for
metastasis but her latest follow up CT shows massive increase in size
which now is highly suspicious of metastasis.
We
got to the admission office and I promised to pray for her. She gave me
her file number and phone number and asked me to look in her CT and
tell her what I think. Although she knows I'm only an intern she trusted
my judgment. I left her to go back to the ER and looked up her CT to be
honest it wasn't promising. I prayed for her and went to my work.
My
next case was 17 year old girl, she tried to kill herself by drinking
bleach. She didn't drink much, so she's fine. She wouldn't tell the
consultant nor the resident why she did it. After they left, I sat down
with her, I asked her if it was her boyfriend, she smiled with a tear in
her eye. I told her that I broke up with my boyfriend today too. We
talked about our problems which wasn't much different. She felt
connected for the 1st time and I was ashamed. It's okay for 17 years old
girl to think that her world has ended just because a man left her but
its not okay for a well accomplished doctor to do so.
I
didn't give it much thought yesterday because I was occupied with my
own drama but I had time to think about it today. I need to change...
